Mar.01

Deadlines

I recently had an epiphany. It came in the form of an SOS from another writer given a tight deadline for edits from her publisher. She asked for my help as a second set of eyes and I agreed without hesitation.

The catch? The edits needed to be back to her that same night. I received the piece at 10pm and was finally able to send it back by 1:30am. The next day, as I sat behind my desk at my 9-5, I realized I’d done for her what I wasn’t doing for myself.

“The enemy is our chattering brain, which, if we give it so much as a nanosecond, will start producing excuses, alibis, transparent self-justifications, and a million reasons why we can’t/shouldn’t/won’t do what we know we need to do.” –Steven Pressfield

I had become lazy, subconsciously nursing my own self-doubt. I made the process harder than it needed to be so that I could tell myself it was okay that I wasn’t writing. I was missing opportunities and deadlines for submissions, but could not produce a valid reason for it.

But, the real question I was left asking myself was, why? Why was I willing to lose sleep and work late into the night for another writer but not be willing to do the same for myself? Fear, self-doubt, self-consciousness, take your pick. I was feeding into my own anxieties and in turn shutting myself down.

Spark.
Fan.
Flame.

It was so easy to find the excuses not to do what I knew was completely within my means to accomplish. I’d become the foil within the story of my own life. And now that I was able to see that, I couldn’t un-see it. I have been writing, revising and producing work of my own everyday since. I have set short tight deadlines, (I realized as well that I do better with them than without) and have not let myself waver from them.

With each new day, I will make the conscious decision to push past the resistance I have created in my own mind. I will overcome the self-doubt that was preventing me from putting out the work I know is within me.

The deadlines are looming. I am more productive than ever…it’s time to get to work.

Self Discovery,Challenges,Motivation,Writing,Quotes

Sep.14

Why I’m a Multicultural Romance Writer

When I sat down to answer the question of why I write multicultural romance, I drew a complete and utter blank.  Every reason I theorized, did not ring true for me.  The answer came only after I realized that writing in this genre of romance was not my intent.
 
I have been an avid reader since a young age.  One of my most vivid memories is of my parents taking me to Walden Books and scanning the racks for the perfect book to take home.  Even as a constant reader, it was not until my late teens that I read a book with Hispanic characters.  I am of Puerto Rican descent, born and raised in New York, and while urban city life has allowed me to relate to a great many things, I could not find a story that mirrored my life.  I was at a loss to find a story that allowed me to make a direct connection to the world I grew up in.  Though I have found a great many amazing Hispanic authors, the stories of second and third generation Hispanics coming of age in the U.S. are far and few in fiction.
 
Once I discovered romance, Historical to Erotic and Chick-Lit to Paranormal, I added in a whole new world of characters and stories to my voracious appetite for reading.  I couldn’t get enough.  My status as constant reader turned to that of insatiable reader.  While I was thoroughly entertained, I was again unable to find my likeness between the pages.    I longed for stories of strong and confident Latinas with careers, who are not afraid to push to the next level in both life and love; stories of interracial romances, where cultures come together, finding passion and love because, and in spite of, their differences.
 
So my intent was never to write a multicultural romance, so much as to write stories set within a frame I could fully relate to, with characters that reflect me and the people in the world around me.  Whether it is in the form of Latinas or interracial couples, there is a lack of representation within literature.  I feel I can make a contribution to altering that by writing to the changing faces of couples and love in America and connecting with a growing population that also wants to see itself in books, if that makes me a writer of multicultural romances, so be it.

Writing,Romance,Multicutural,Novel